Speak to me please

Holly crap!
i am all by myself here, and i know i'm not so bad off.
I really wanted to go home.
i could, though i know it sucks here!





Yes I'm lonely wanna die.
If i aint dead already,
b, you know the reason why.

- John lemon/ Paul Mc cartney

Blues it out!

Gosh!
I will spend most of my break working on papers (assignment lagih dan lagihh), studying fer test.(hah, test lagi dan lagihh) kusut. kusut.Its been really annoying because all i really want to do is lay around all day. So dyra, jgn bmimpi lahh kauu nak blk rumah hari2.Hiks!

So, today is monday. Black horrible monday actualy. First class were started, when i come back to uni, and something was irrevocably lost. My purse..Hilang!! Imran amar (aka Im, the classmate) sgt bengang.

dyra : "im, bleh tak g fac jap.
im : " alah.malas!! nk g basuh kete. kenapa?"
*alamak takut la nk ckp kat mamat nih.
dyra : " alahh, jap je, ada hal skit.hee"
im : "ko ni ada2 jelah. hal apa?"
dyra :"Purse dyra tetinggal la kat fac!"
im :" dyraaa!! bleh tak jgn careless sgtt! myusahkan je lah pompan nih."

haha. Then, the story end. bongoss kan?The most annoying day in the history retail.

Being-home-is-great
I have been spending a bunch of time with my fam in a row of day.



It is really great because we are very tight-knit-bunch.
Where, we always havva good time when we are together.
(even shalu gado2 ponh.haks!)



and family holsss are particularly merciless. grrrrr!
kekeke. When, we're jalan2 together.



Endless driving to a places that seemed make me wonder (childhood). Pantai Remis!!



My two sisters and brother.
*Muhammad Ilham
*Sufia Nur
*Illy Syazana Nur
I was happy to have a place to go, and visit, and stay overnight with them.



It was just us!
And we got pulled over. The camera effect.
ngeee.




I will outline one of my fondest memories from each sibling that i am thankful fer today. Peace!







Well, we cuddled up the times together, and laughed. Our.asses.Off.huhu

There are few times in life one laughs as hard as we did that day.
We sat there pausing/snapping/capturing/rewinding/reviewing a handful of scenes that just keep us laughing over and over again.
I wish i could replay this moment when i need a good laugh.




toodles~

Days turn into multi-day

Today, i choose certain times to push myself without doing it every single day. I brought my nephew to clinic, because he's getting fever fer a week. So, i could only stay fer a few hours, anything fer you IMAN AL-FARISSI. To be ensured he's not getting sick again, I went anywayy.

  

There is only so much time i can give up because one might come along. I'm waiting fer iman. He's been diagnosed.

I factored as today is a sick day..shian iman..

 

Shian bdak ni. ari2 mnangis. Constantly overdoing it (crying), and constantly being sick.

I learned that, i will become terribly ill when i push myself too much. Now i know to hold back. Sometimes i think too well. So, iman, you will be well now. mama lala teman kan iman pergi clinic okay!

I woke up in the night with the early stages fer everytime when i heard iman crying. By intentionally not making a trade off, I feel no guilt to kakak.

  

  

Iman with mummy iman aka my sis. Where iman never looked as a "org sakit". Sgt happy go lucky la mamat nih! macam tak demam je.

  

It did! His outlook is suprisingly good! tak nangis langsung beb. Even doc dah inject dia.

Look at his arm. Shian nya dia. 

  

  

He will usually pretty good at it. Iman budak baik kann?? I hope he will feel much better physically after on. Pheww! aminn..

  

Back to the good outlook. hehe. Muka tak larat nk senyum. 

This is that Mr. Strong. He had a fever and sore throat. Tp, dia cool okay. Kdg2 je sgt2 mnangis. We took him to the docs. And the doc said, he just had a normal fever and it is not a  virus ocay! (like i already know that). He seemed like he dien really know what was wrong with him. Because he already know he is that MR.STRONG. Strongla iman! as your papa mrul! lalala (walhal, strongla sgt mrul tuh)

I know i should never feel guilty if anyone in the house will being sick, but I rarely do what I should. Today i can see what a reprieve it is to just let myself be as i need to be:

-anak yang solehah. (insyallah)

-wife yg mithali and ber"kaliber"

-aunty yg strict, but cool..kahkah

thats all.

over act youh! wahaha!

baby

Miss-Dependant-Membebel

We're in a what we calls,

a-committed-long-distance-relationship.

Surely to say, I miss him damn much. btul. Seriuss gile babs nih! gahh gah.I am free as now. Hols fer only a week. Not eating much, because I was so depresseed that he's far away before. And not now. He is somewhere around me, not as far as before, but we're too busy fer seeing each other. I'm so happy fer his success, but i just miss him because I barely talk to him now. I do send him a tons of offline message (maybee). We are going to be talking nt as usual, cant do it randomly. These had made me been so emotionally drained that i'm afraid to talk to him because of it.

My life is going to be a little hectic! Yikes!

Well, i basically described everything that has been going on in my life.

Poyo je. Because i'm showing-off the side of meh. I can tell you, You should know me well now.

♥ baby

my way going to little messy

Never fall asleep last night.Just wakeup, enjoying the morn,cleaning the home, makeup-ing. Go out with kakak and mama. Went to uitm settled-up my college fer intersession this coming monday. Shitss. Starting that bloddy hell of class. (18th may - 16th june).Arghhh! Dien freely enjoying my hols. Sgtt penat and i'm just too worry witte fact that i'm not too ready. Cett. 

I just need something to calm me down. A few comforting words. Some comforting advice. Especially fer my studies. Anything negative is truly uncalled fer, and unappreciated, and frankly just a waste of your time and mine. tq :)

This semester break, we dun even spend  time together fer ours photography session. Takpe2. nati kak dyra cuti lagi, kte snapping sampai lebammmmm k. Yay!

♥  baby

F***

What is the single moment you will always remember and cherish the most? Is it the day you spent together with him, a vacation you took with him, or a simple daily ritual? pls pls pls..saying nottt!!

p/s: loving-is-a-mess

shitsssss

if my bf was here,I will doing same like this! Picit2 muka dia kasi kemek!! 

and b,  you better havva wing, where you could come to me, crashing me away. marah sana. marah sini. erghhh! enough la man

 I hate man the most. (plak tbe2)

*excluding ayah

omigosh! i need this freedom of air.

Blah~

grounded me.

This week will be pretty quiet. My semester break I was supposed to have only til this sunday. I shall start packing my stuff to take back to uni. And i realized that i absolutely hate to pack! Otherwise, things are starting to slow down. A few of my friends are leaving pretty soon. Su, im gonna mish u la en. Its gonna stink have to saying goodbye to her. She will transfer back to uitm malacca.

Its still hasnt completely set in that.I wont be back fer the new semester. But, i think once I'm home fer every week I guess. Boring duh duk shah alam tuh!

Worth-than-nothing

Goodbye

Suriati Selamat

Su, even you're nt ere next sem. Sure be miss la by me. Thanks Su fer giving me this valuable friendship stake. Kept on me about how good the series was. Cherish it.

Thats about it fer now. Chow~

♥ nadiranur

Insert foot in mouth

Its been a while.
Almost a month. Lot of things happened lately.
Some good. Some intense. And some bad.
Lets not to get to the bad ones-there is no point.
Bad things = drop them.
Good things = cherish them.
Intense things = you can get rid even if you wanted to.

That was I am.
So yeah! Like I said, its been a while.

I have my wayyy as well. But the hypocrisy doesnt end there..heee.

But, i'm not reffering to this lil lady. She's my roomy. Not as a *rumit* person at all. Turned me off dude. Mari tgk dia!! Nama dia IZA...

Let me tell you something. She love POOH damn much. Her collection, bloody hell than me i telling you! Her cover fer pillow/towel/blanket/cadar/bear2/almost all her stuff lah. Mmg dahsyatt. Kdg2 POOH dia kene blasah ngn kami. bile dia takde. hahah. (keje me and nurul) peace IZA! haha~

halleluyahh! I finally gave in and i'm no longer poking fun at all of them.
I guess i'm not only judgmental, but i'm also hypocrite too. Geeez. But you still like me right?
To nurul/iza/amnah : peace!!

makan kuaci.
mak saya kata, cina mabuk je mkn kuaci.hiks?

kan da mabuk tu..lol!

weytt. why my face looking that fucking gedikk?Ko ingat ko cun la buat muka cmtuhhh?kahkah.akuh mmg sgt vainn.ok..cool lah bety.

it was so unrealistic, but it just kept pulling me back for more.

Or perhaps that is too strong of a statement because someone disrespects us which we would hind and make it end.

The fact that we smiles too much and we has a scary laugh.muaghaha.

I know you too well now. Either way or another, thank you kerna mnumpang di bilik kami. Hee. Basically, that wouldnt be a big deal at all.

Hmm....makes me think too!!! Why did I do it? Probably because I am a hypocrite. I guess I am just craving fer attention. Or I just probably wanted to put something on my head. But the thing is, will I be at peace with myself after attaining this position in?....dunno yet!.....Anyways, apart from that - I just realised from writing all my posts as above, I am really confused and have a huge guilty conscience!!! Oh wow!!! Oh well, cant do much...





p/s: Cmon nurul, sent me our latest pic. It shud be the most hilarous blog shall i post. I swore, rather than this.










♥ Baby