WHAT DID I REMEMBER FROM MY SCHOOLING-UNI DAYS?

(ok sekarang kene jawab dgn muka kerek, konon konon dah nak grad. So, ini serius muka kerek. Boleh? Haha)

ok the answer is:

Whole loads of drama for sure! Haha!

THESIS:

"Adalah mimpi ngeri, drama sana sini. Susah-senang sana sini. Menjerit melolong seorangan sana sini. Menangis sana sini. Who knows, i'm done ok!"

Ok family and friends,

It is not even a day of celebration. i will use this day (starting today ok) to reflect my achievements. I will often ask myself, "If ayah is around, will he be proud of me? Have i done enough to make my parents proud?". Hee. (Dengan harapan ayah and mama tinjau tinjau post ini. Haih!). So as i considering this Pre-graduate, (AHHA) i do hope to lead my life with a good purpose and continuously improve and reach a different level every day. InsyaAllah. Perhaps this is one of the reasons why i am always passionate to chase my personal goals. It is something that i really want to accomplish and make mama and ayah proud. Cewahh. Macam dah confirm grad. Berangan sgt ke hadapan. HAHA. Keep on dreaming babes!

Love, DyraDrea ♥

This week, i was a "Boneka Bernyawa"

Stress out my ass! Oh migrain, migrain hari hari.

umpph, i think these sentence says it all. Completing thesis and preparing presentation in less than one week. Let's see how i die. *dead*

Kenapa boneka bernyawa? because of having 24 hours depan laptop, without having any feeling and desire towards other. Ini bukan simptom kemurungan ye. Tapi, simptom kerisauan dengan keberjayaan and keberkesanan research paper saya ni. Ok, dulu cita-cita nak jadi lecturer, dgn sebab, nak membantu anak bangsa. Tapi, memikirkan betapa payah nya nak complete kan satu simple research paper ni. Macam tak jadi je cita-cita tu. Haha. Oh, sorry ayah!

love, dyradrea

"Hidup" tak semudah yang di sangka

Kadang-kadang saya lagi selesa begini. Saya tahu saya tak kuat. Tapi, saya mencuba. Saya tahu, saya tak boleh. Tapi, saya mencuba. Dulu, saya tak matured. Dulu, saya sering dimanja. Dulu, saya suka bergembira. Dulu, saya lebih more to dunia. Tapi..itu semua dulu. Kenapa dgn sekarang? Mungkin kerana usia. Mungkin kerana environment sekeliling. Mata saya lebih terbuka. Hati saya mula lebih merasa. Fikiran saya yang dulu sempit, makin luas luas dan luas. Saya jadi macam ini ada reason nya. Saya buat decision macam ini, ada reason nya. Ramai kata saya EGO. Sangat EGO. Ok, memang tak nak nafikan pun. Ramai org kata: "dyra jangan ego sangat, nanti makan diri". Eh, which one is better? Makan diri, or makan hati? Makan diri will happen once, then settle. Makan hati? continuously tau. Long-term effect yang boleh defect macam macam. So takpelah, biar lah orang nak kata apa. Saya lebih selesa begini. Saya nak buktikan for mama and ayah, satu hari nanti, anak ini lah yang dulu nya suka merengek, dah boleh berdiri atas kaki sendiri. Anak ini lah yang dulu suka merungut, boleh settle kan problem dengan sendiri nya. I will. Yes, i will!

Saya tahu, hidup ini hanya sementara.

Tak berjaya dapat kebahagian di dunia.

Di akhirat mungkin ada. Amin :)

love,

dyradrea

Never Alone.

Dear family,

Alhamdulillah, feeling so blessed these few days, without wondering how in the WORLD, ANYONE could EVER doubt for a MOMENT that there is people, there is "LOVE". It is beyond description. These peoples are mine. Allah gave these precious angels to me. No matter where my journey takes me, no matter how alone i may or may not feel, no matter how few things i may not have, win or lose, i quickly reminded by one glance, one kiss, one snuggle, one uncontrolled giggle, that i have EVERYTHING...EVERY--THING ok. The WORLD and ETERNITY EVEN. So blessed. I am honestly overcome.

Me, siblings, lil' cousins and Aunty :)

Nak tahu?

I'm so into you

oh baby i must confess, every time i see u.

I love Sunsets so much!

I realize more and more we can easily go, through the daily motions of life and not really be downgrading. There are always reason y we can't or shouldn't do something. Otherwise life just seems to dreary.

Umpph, all about surviving to the next week until weekend.

Oh sunsets, Oh Allah. I'm always with you :)

-dyradrea